When I first came to this board I was so excited. The joy that the people on this board have brought me is indescribable. I came from Uprising and Destiny feeling kinda displaced and not knowing where to start over and this was the perfect place. It became my home. Then real life fell apart.
It has been months. Months of sadness, confusion, depression, heartache, starting over, etc etc. You name it, the last few months I've felt it I'm almost certain. The only word that I can think of that simply describes it is hell. I've been through hell and back and probably made another trip just for the heck of it.
*Baby daddy lost his job leaving us BROKE! -This storm has passed but it was a hard one.
*Lost a family friend who I was close with and was like an Aunt to me.
*Had to take care of my great grandmother who was dying of cancer. - This was a hard one for me.
*Great-Grandmother died
*Lost another close family friend that was like a grandma to me.
*Had several fires around the area (I'm on the fire department and run around making sure the guys have everything they need food, water, etc)
*Baby Daddy got into a car wreck that wasn't his fault at all but two people died. - I was already emotionally spent but this one sent me over the edge almost. It was hard to recover from this one.
*Took a business trip to Dallas for 4 days
*Oklahoma catches on fire and doesn't stop burning for over two weeks. The fires have destroyed so many acres, houses, buildings, etc. We have been displaced from our home while trying to fight them, This has been the hardest.
There's been little things in the middle I'm sure but here's the major events. I owe you all an apology for not being around and not holding up my end but I just couldn't do it. I couldn't handle any more stress with out breaking. I had to take care of myself before I could take care of a fictional character and all their problems.
I'm sorry to those I've let down, I'm sorry to those I disapointed. I will do my best from now on to hold my end of the deal. I am very very sorry.
